Sorry I haven't been around much of late. I have had a rough time with my illness/disability, was diagnosed with more heart issues, and had a bad reaction to a new heart medication. When I say it was a bad reaction - it wasn't life-threatening or anything, but I felt like I was losing my mind! I was having incredibly vivid nightmares of my own death multiple times per night, and recurrent uninvited thoughts of death, flashbacks to panic attacks and severe anxiety.
I persevered with the medication for over a month, because all of the leaflets said that the side effects would subside - but they only got worse. Last week, I began to experience some very scary effects of sleep deprivation. My body was going numb and paralyzed, and I had horrible nausea and head zaps every time I moved my eyes. I decided enough was enough, and I couldn't cope with it anymore.
Anyway - I have now thrown out the medication, and had the best night's sleep ever the last two nights. I will need to see the cardiologist for an alternative treatment for my heart, but I am hoping I will be better from now on. The anxiety, panic, crazy thoughts and nightmares are gone already - so I am veryyyyyyy happy and relieved. I should be back to my old self now!